No more R&B for me :)

I gotta be honest. Really feeling; really listening to music and what it says can bring about lots of emotion. I'm not going to lie, I really wanted to be "jockin' the bitches and slappin' the hoes" after listening to Easy E. Kidding. But West Coast Gangster Rap puts me into a rambunctious mood and lo and behold, I get pulled over today while Dr. Dre's "Let Me Ride" was playing.

This brings me to love songs. Most love songs fall under the R&B category and usually, they trickle down to Top 40, Neo-Soul, Pop, Rock, and Acoustic genres. Before writing this, the last 2 years of my music listening was 70% devoted to R&B and the other "trickle-down" genres; then the other 30% to Hip-Hop, Metal, and _________ (<-insert obscure ass genre). I now despise love songs.

FACT: 90% of music is based on the subject of love.

I know that Ne-Yo put out that "So Sick" joint a couple of years ago, but my argument against love songs is different. A week ago, one of my boys, who graduated with a degree in psychology, told me about a study he was looking into researching that links the music we listen to to our behaviors in daily life. After hearing this, I'm thinking to myself, "hmm, nah, that's bullshit." I begin to think more..."wait, that's not bullshit."

So, I'm sitting there thinking there's some truth behind that study. I wanna cut this short by saying that because of my, I don't want to say "excessive," but...excessive listening to R&B and other love song genres, I became overly sensitive and caring in the presence of females in the last few years. And I'm sure many of my male and female friends can attest to that. HAHA. Reasons below...

A close friend said: "You're doing too much for people who won't do the same for you."

I'm not saying chivalry is bad, but what I was doing was DAMN too much, according to one of my friends who was observing haha. Anyway, love songs put me into this mood of "false hope" or "yeah, maybe something will happen with this one," or "man, I'm missing something in my life, I should try and find it" ...stuck in that fucking hopeless romantic bullshit haha. I always felt like a dumbass. Everytime, it seemed like I was trying to hit on a woman, treat her like she was a girlfriend, and wasn't there to be her friend, you know? Some weak shit, right?

Then, I'd go beat myself up later in the day when I wasn't doing shit for acting like that, and then sooner or later, I'd get stuck in the same loop. Rinse and repeat. That's how I was. And that's why I'm leaving it. Hell, I was even acting like a little bitch in front of all my boys. It was getting annoying for everyone. YES! I know I seem fucking emo right now, but this is REAL SHIT. It's not like I'm crying or anything. I'm actually trying to see if anyone can relate to music affecting their behavior. It does seem ridiculously stupid, but really, music can affect your mind, body and soul. It turned me mad SOFT! haha

45% of my collection of music got cut after the switch up...DAAAAAAMN! haha

I haven't been listening to any shit like that for the past week and I'm not going to lie, I'm slowly becoming that crazy mothafucka who had no regard for shit and didn't sweat anything so hard. And when I was that crazy/reckless dude, I had better grades, better relationships with people and nothing to care about. I've been pretty reckless the past week and It feels good to get back into being plain, old me. That means no more Robin Thicke, Usher, John Legend, or ___________ (insert artist who sings a love song here). Or I could just limit it...haha ...

I'm drunk